There Is No Plan B.

Its all or nothing this time

There is no Plan B, because I threw it away. I took the option, balled it up and tossed it in the trash.

Plan B, C, D, E, F, G and its friends have kept me from fully falling into myself. These alternatives have pacified dreams. They have limited my capacity. They have casted towers of doubt over Plan A.

Plan A is the original vision. The initial dream. The end goal of all end goals that has sat patiently waiting while I fucked around and found out with all these side quests, jobs, projects, contracts, and roles that took me away from Plan A.

Yet there she sat. Patient and confident. Plan A has always been sure of herself and I’m not just now giving her the time of day. Truly she deserves better, but the better is who I become when I execute her.

I pray I learn to wear Plan A’s confidence and embody her patience.

I pray for grace as I lean into her perfect simplicity.

I pray I acknowledge her sage wisdom.

I pray I she delights in my discovery of her steps

Plan A deserves my unwavering commitment

For today I am the bridegroom daring to say “I Do” despite my fears of uncertainty

For my fears of not having you in my life are greater than my historical hesitation.

Plan A, for you I will.